Pregnancy After Cancer

RecapI've begun this post months and months before I will actually click on the "Publish" button in hopes to capture the feelings, emotions, and the journey itself of IVF after cancer. In May 2018 following my major debulking surgery to remove cancer that had riddled my abdomen, I awoke to the news that both of…

The Johnson’s Journey

We have completed the screening application for foster care and will be submitting it Monday!!! How exciting?! And absolutely scary at the same time. I'm sure this will be an emotional roller in itself, but there's nothing we can't handle. ♥️ Plus, Levi really wants a little brother or sister. 😜 I have also accepted…

Emotional Rollercoaster Reality

Yesterday, I had the opportunity to participate in Making Strides Breast Cancer Walk. It was phenomenal and the turnout was tremendous. The streets were bulging with individuals in pink; each with their own reason "why." Being an American Cancer Society advocate, it is incredible to see the effort and support at each ACS event and…

Reality. 🤪

Once again, it's been a while since I posted. Life has been, well... life has been beautifully crazy. I've had my post-op CT scan and blood work and received the best news yet from my oncologist. My blood work and CT scan came back clean ! 🎉 But here's my reality:: I don’t talk about…

Love THIS Life

Creating and adapting to a "new normal" has been exhausting and exhilarating all at the same time. Every day I'm mesmerized by the beautiful experiences and interactions life has to offer. But I'm also  aggravated at the audacity of people because of their ignorance.  It is very hard for me to show sympathy for people…

Be Obsessively Grateful

I read a quote once that said, "she cries at least once a day at how beautiful life is." At the time, I remember thinking, 'hm, that's dumb.' But now, that quote is so beautiful and couldn't be more true. Tears aren't always a product of sadness or unhappiness, but sometimes a result of emotional…

Cancer is a comma, not a period.

This may be the end of my journey with cancer but it's just the beginning of a better me. I fought the battle and I won. Cancer forced me to take a good look at myself and asked me to redefine who I thought I was. My priorities dramatically shifted, my focus became clear, and…

“Scars are souvenirs we never lose.”

It's odd, writing for yourself. I have little hesitation staring momentarily at a virtually blank digital canvas before filling it with a story, an analysis, a homework assignment, or an essay. But, finding the courage or even the right words to describe your own life, is difficult sometimes. The "I should write a blog post…

UPDATE, finally.

Well, it's definitely been a while since I've written a post. The last couple weeks of recovery from my surgery have been a whirlwind of emotions, pain, and overall understanding. Finally, every day is only getting better, and I had a doctor's appointment that was filled with great news (good lord, I needed that). I…

Second Surgery: ✅

Six. Half a dozen. Three times two. There is a six minute lock out time lapse between my self-issued pain medication. Doesn't seem like a long time, right? It is. 😡 I will admit, my pain has become much more manageable, but this is definitely SO much more than the laparoscopic procedure. A lot of…